Tuesday, July 18, 2006
denise shited{[[..........
crouching....
in pain
tension
in my gastric
i suffer
what i deserve
the poor diet
lack of care for my health
hunger
to be slim
is not to be
a diet
should never be it
i cried
holding on to my tummy
wishing heaven could send
my own personal angel
that god would
somehow
take notice of my plight
however
a twist
how could i fall???
how can i fail
i buried my head down
in self despondence
i was......
calling out your name....
lost without you;
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Sunday, June 25, 2006
denise shited{[[
i was just looking at the blog posts of my past
thinking about what i went through
i really did not make most of my life
actually,
i was and still wasting them away
but its sometimes great to have friends
true friends where you can lean on
actually, yesterday was supposed to watch soccer
but lazy dad was fast asleep...
so much for watching soccer at 3am
men.....
lost without you;
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Thursday, June 22, 2006
denise shited{[[.................
So its true that I can never have a peaceful online time without being disturbed. Every single time i try to do my homework something crops up. Every single time i try to surf the net peacefully something else crops up. I can never got to understand these coincidences.
Relationships are really problematic. Never get into them. Of course, I'm not ruling out the fact that there are many people enjoying them. But, they are more or less, problematic. Many factors are present to form these 'problems'. One of these reasons is that people from diverse backgrounds find it hard to get along together. Love is a very general topic. It is in fact possible for complete strangers fall in love like what i have said in my previous post, but making a relationship work is a whole different. I can love any guy. Yes, any guy. I think that every person has a good point in a way or another. It is called loving as a friend. i can also love most guys in this catergory. yep, most. you can say that i love them as my brother or sister in christ. These two kinds of love is also contained in the general meaning of love and even as friends, certain kind of strenghening and arguements may b present, but its still love. The other 2 kinds are even harder to sustain but the love for them is still there. they are love for your immediate family members and n the top of the paramid is the love of your life partner. Lets just rank the love with a picture of a paramid. friends as the lowest and your life partner as the highest. As you go up higher onto the paramid, love is no doubt present but you see, the effort put in to make these relations work out gets harder.
so that now draws nearer to the main subject.
love within couples.
i will continue tml
lost without you;
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
denise shited{[[.............
mr a likes miss b
he wants to show off her to the world
she wants to keep it a secret
what goes tru their minds?
apprantly one loves her so much tt he wants to show her off to the world
but cus she wants more happenings with the opposite sex
or that she dun reli like him
or that she is not prepared to let ppl noe tt she's in a relationship
seriously
for me
i wuld like a guy hu would show off the world
tt im his
but if you would see it frm a gal's perspective
i believe that it'll b a whole diff thing
telling ppl that he is ur bf might possibly mean tt
1. you are losing your freedom with other guys
2. you have to account your actions with another guy in detail to your guy which can b reli irritating for me as a person hu simply embraces freedom
but as you can see
guys like to show their gals
a bit is ok
but pls dun get over board by taking note on her everymove
and.....
sometimes...
as a gentleman
patience and generousity are the biggest factor
i believe that we are manufactured and tailored in such a way that we can love anyone who fits our descriptions and illusions sometimes in love
but making a relationship work is a diff thing altogether
its combinations and stitches of tolerence and the knowing of how to differentiate between controlling and concern
being a guy also must remember to always make the first move
i duno abt most gals but it reli irks me when i meet a guy hu is indecisive and wants me to make the first move
like....are you a man???
gals like to be chased
not to chase ppl
if a guy cannot do a simple ting like chasing the gal he likes and on top of that,expect a gal to chase him
i tink he's not a man at all
might as well cut off his dick and implant breasts
looks is one thing
character is yet another
but attitude is most impt
the attitude you treat your gal
you can b veh patient....
teaching...tolerating
but even if u hav these qualities
and yet dun use it on the gal tt u like
or even love
you r such a failure
not to b insulting you or anyting
but u r a failure
if u want to prove me wrong
its basically veh easy
it'll onli take 1 guy whom i see...in my life
to prove me wrong in my beliefs
tt i wil b convinced tt guys r nt horrid creatures aft all
trust me....aft i see 1 guy hu has the qualities of a real man....giving his darling happiness...wil i den believe
my expectations are simple
just make her happy..........
for the rest of her life...and on top of that...you must b happy too by making her happy and nt b unfaithful to her
just tt expectation
i wil b convinced
sum1 wanted to prove me wrong
and had told me before tt he will prove it to me tt he wil nv lose his temper nor make me upset or unhappy...daring to prove it is half success alr...but failing it badly........haish....he got angry by wad he himsself has done
another said tt he wuld treat me well....
but he nv did
such losers
treating me well is 1 ting
its smth tt shld b done to the gal he likes
but......aft awhile he treated me like dung
nt tt he's my anyone
and thank god he's stil my fren and nt my bf..
anyways...i duno wad im toking abt now...
my mind is losing focus
actually it lost focus at the middle of this post
but...oh well
lost without you;
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Sunday, June 18, 2006
denise shited{[[
his touch
his love
can never be true
what a he says
wadever he promised
wadever he vowed
whatever he sweared by
can never be trusted
faith
can only be found in god
guilt
in every man's heart
the fleeting feeling of love
the liquid that will make one
sink so deeply
and yet survive on it
the emotions involved
the happiness at the start
reciprocated 10 times
with the stab on your heart
pangs of lost love
magnified 100 times
the syrup of love
joys
and despair
are just part
and like animals
a he will throw you'down..
down into the giant pits of death
after winning your heart
he would bury you deep underneath
burn your heart into the fiery
scorching fire
love will never die
but it would disappear suddenly
faster than the speed of light
the speed of sound
it vanishes
by slipping away steathily
without a trace
and kills
and gets away with murder
it would all start
if one falls in love
lost without you;
Sunday, June 18, 2006
denise shited{[[
a kiss by a rose
a touch on her buds
the smell of her fragrance
lingers in his arms
her presence glows
and brightens his darkness
in full bloom
beauty is magnified
his eyes glowed
lightning bright
before though it was gloom
and grey
but she brings out
his glow
the light hits the gloom on the grey
she is his power
to strive
his pleasure sight
his pain
of lovestrike
her smoothing sway
drew him into a gentle sleep
she whispered
a smile lit his face
and touch his lips
with those gentle petals
her beauty
her dances
it drew
the lillies and sunflowers into jealously
lost without you;
Sunday, June 18, 2006
Friday, June 16, 2006
denise shited{[[.....................
my life
akin to broken glass
a million itsy bitsy pieces
it fell
my arms
they were steel
my soul
were like iron
my strength
they were rocks
it all fell apart
it laid on the ground
shattered
unmendable
is thy heart
it grew
it exploded
its warm
now kept refrigerated
my burning desire
the passion
unignited
the feeling stays
that broken heart
but time
it everflows
like nagara
the time...
yes the time
looking the sand flow
in the hour glass
eventually
everything would end
and i hope
time would heal my broken heart
lost without you;
Friday, June 16, 2006
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
denise shited{[[...............
would you feel pressured if your gf is chased by a great many??
ahhas
next year, i want to begin a new chapter of life
a life filled with joy and entertainment
now...it seemed all meaningless
lost without you;
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Saturday, June 03, 2006
denise shited{[[..................
take this test,i made it my own
the perfect man
1) when your girl says 'darling, help me tell my sister that i am meeting her outside popular bookstore at 3pm since you are near that area where she is involved in a carnival' , you...
a) say see how
b) tell her sister
c) tell her sister and wait for your girl at the same time
d) depends on whether you bump into her sister
2) when your girl suddenly comments on your hair being nice, you......
a) say 'thanks'
b) comments on how u always look like this yet she fails to notice it
c) say'its also not for you to see since you always say that my hair isn't nice'
d) 'remind' her that you have to keep up your looks to be able to compliment her when you walk together
3) when your girl throws a tandrum on you which you know that the situation involved does not concern you, you...
a) keep quiet(hey everyone need their venting outlet and you don't mind being her venting outlet cus you love her dearly)
b) give suggestive comments on how to solve her problem
c) get angry and tell her that its none of your business and that she shouldn't vent her anger at you unnecessarily
d) put her off, give her a big scolding and blames her that she has only herself to blame for the plight she's in
4) a brillent present to give to a girl is....
a) a cheap and imaginative present(hey...its the thought that counts)
b) the most expensive present you can afford
c) a thing which you like and think that she will also like since you both share the same interests and have the same personality
c) a rose will be best
1)
a)a sloppy guy
b)responsible and care for his girl to a certain extent
b)my kinda guy...a thumbs up 4 u!
d)forget about even trying to like me
2)
a)ok lar...can make it
b)are you telling your girl that she did not notice you??but on this,it all depends on the tone that you use
c)status you are in: ditched
d)that would be nice
3)
a)something expected(girls are natuarly sensitive thus guys should remain patient and should already be able to not hold it against her...but..don't be a dummy and agree to everything she says)
b)my kinda man!
c)logical but it isn't the way to treat a girl
d)asshole!
4)
a)yes...thought counts...but no1 knows how much thought you have put in...unless its an earth-breaking thought...i dun think your girl is worth that cheaply
b)how cares if you are rich....does she like that expensive present of yours??
c)hey man...dun take things for granted alrite
d)that would be nice
what can i say...........the test says it all
lost without you;
Saturday, June 03, 2006
Friday, June 02, 2006
denise shited{[[.......
pretty hunks,they pass
they stare and look
but my eyes are for no other
the burning desire
men they see
in front of them,
a gorgeous babe
whom cannot make up her mind
in that sexy bikini
such a rare sight
seductive
alluring
but not at all skimpy
her face
as clear as crimson buds
like a budding rose
rising among the rest of the roses
the redest of the redest
the youngest among the youngest
and the purest of all purest
in her eyes
raging fire
yet as calm as the calmest ocean
her lips
as warm as the shinning evening sun
romentic and poutful
her smile
as beautiful as the medows
melts your insides too
her hair
soft and lush
like the feathers of a young swan
attracted many suitors
all strong in their unique ways
fluttering her long lashes
resembling the beautiful butterflies
that declare her
the princess of all princesses
the queen of all queens
senseless poem???agn!
dammit!!!
inspiration is the most fragile thing...isnt it
lost without you;
Friday, June 02, 2006
Thursday, June 01, 2006
denise shited{[[................
beauty is.......
what you see in my eyes
the warm, sweet caress
the gentle touch
my arms is filled with you
you surround me
yes, you alone
each day seems like a second
only with you around
an eternity would not be enough
for me to show you just how much
you mean to me
each time we are apart
it would be hundred of centuries
before you appear beside me again
that heart warming smile
that sweet tasting kiss
still lingers inside me
this very shell that i am
before i met you
i will never regret
living my life for you alone
passionate love
and a ravaneous appetite for you
what more could i ask for
after you stepped into my life
after you changed me
you alone are my man....
lost without you;
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
denise shited{[[............
a time of fun
a time of joy
a time of hope
a time of laughter
the sea glistering in the sun
the shore shinning with happiness
and one can easily sense relaxation
at the sound of the waves
the waves...ahh...the waves!
they come with a 'splash' and
return with a 'swish'
little crabbies
they come
out of their homes
to see this magnificent sight
the sun was falling
yes,to the west
the tinge of orange
was seen
at the edge of the sea
the day was coming to an end
and the dawn of darkness
they came
walking hand-in-hand
with me,myself and i
wondering what it would be like
walking with a companion
down the sealine
i walked...and walked and suddenly had a plan
the busy lives of a student these days
led me into endless anxieties
'when is the homework due?'
'when will the project end?'
countless worries of these and more!
made me stressed and depressed
and so...
i made a deal
i stood at the shoreline
and gave a scream
awww...soft-spoken me
they was really loud u see
it was akin to the squrriel
giving a thunderous 'squick'
but now bad eh?
i felt some relief
to my burden-filled heart
a gave a shout again
at the end of the day
my throat felt hoarse
it must have been too much screaming
i thought to myself
the ride home was long
and the smell of the beach still lingers in the taxi air
when will i be back?
to shout what i achieved?
when will it be
when......
i will be walking there again
with the man of my dreams...
lost without you;
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
denise shited{[[...............
when i worke up this morning,
i was like...in pain
so...i was groaning for mother...
literally....
mum was like...'do u hav ur cramps or smth???cus u really need a panadol tablet u know"
which isnt a very nice thing to sae in the morning
so i went on...painfully explaining my painful plight
i headed to the toilet immediately
and started to sms my frens...
hu knows tt jean dar din bring her fone
aww...i feel so guilty....
and i smsed dar
and its like...so unsymphatatic
so...i was like oh well....
i happened to sms drus dar and she was kind enough to offer her 'cooking serivces' to me aft sch
i guess i suffered this diarroa cus i did not cook my mushroom soup well yesterday...
u know....the kind of soup which comes in a can...
kinda stupid....
soo...my cls actually received their report books today...
i was like....
so...gona faint u know...
not doing well and stuff...
i think i kinda slacked a lil...
but its like...o's are cummin and i cannot afford to slack anymore
which brings me thinking...what am i doing here...
anyway...back to the main point....
u(u noe hu u r)...shld b ashamed of urself....
i cannot explain...
its nt regarding my cls
but...yah...u...
how can u b liddat
i know tt its impt to u n everyting...n im nt making a big fuss of u...
but dun u tink smth is seriously lacking in ur relationship???
u dun hav to know the ans...as a gal...i know...but its like...smth so direct tt it can b found in ur very own human instincts....
its no wonder ur gf detests u...
and no...its nt cl or mkz...its another couple im toking abt...
haish...tt is why i always say that ideal soul mates can only be found in the tv....
soooo......im gona marry my tv...ahhas...lame!
i still cannot figure out what is so nice abt u anyway....
bin comparing
u even hav more pimple scars than me...
and u hav like....a dozen more shortcomings than me....
but what gives???
hu am i to judge...
argh!!1denise!!can u stop juding ppl?????
follow christ for his sake!!!!!!!!
argh!!!!
ok...im trying to stop this nonsense
lost without you;
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Sunday, May 21, 2006
denise shited{[[.........
shi zhi shan...............
u r the type of guy
that wuld melt my heart
u really remind me of someone
someone......
i just watched this show...
shi zhi shan was really sweet
im talking about character here
how can michelle not like him?
im falling head over heals with his character now
awwwww.......but still....
in real life...there can never be that kinda guy
not even flaring up when michelle bluffed him
y carn guys b liddat
of cus...its a show yah???
its hard to find some1 who will not flare up no matter what senseless things you do....
actually...i found 1....
but.....
not ideal for me
but yet...ideal
i mean...not ideal...
1. its presurising
2. i have my future...no1 can ruin it for me
its ideal...
1. he did not get angry with whatever senseless things i did
2. the feeling...i carn describe...its wierd
but still....i have nothing to say....
the most impt thing is that....
if you love some1, you will always think of smth 4 tt someone....
not some1 who u flare your anger to
and sometimes i encounter situations that....
i feel...
that i should not be getting into
love is when it happens natually...
i don't expect to find love in my life anyway...
cus...im straightforward
and will sometimes do crazy things....
im a jinx to guys hu like me
i bring trouble
no one can find happiness with me...
unless.....
im such a jinx that sometimes....
its sometimes too much of a coincidence
cailing...did you remember what i told you????
never underestimate...
lost without you;
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
denise shited{[[..........
From the very start
Demise was never
Ever
Near
I saw what you were
Sweet and gentle
Everything about you is perfect
And each time I have my eyes locked into yours
Jasmine fragrance emits through the air
Abundant love
Is mine to you
My soul, my heart are forever yours
Even if you never know
Sweet, sweet Christina my dear
As we walked through the path of life
Younger, if ever possible
That we may
Have a chance for marriage
Everything could have been perfect
Finalizing my endless love
In taking care of you
Rest assured
Starting from now
Tears will never once again flow
Wondrous things are meant to happen
Over and over
Resulting in the love we share
Determination to show, the will to care
Often, you might have doubts, but
Future is in our hands
Please now, hear my wish
And understand these words
Real or unreal…the illusions that men perceive
Acknowledge, thus, I am the one for thee
&
Wordlessly, messages are sent
Only some who fear to see
Rivers flow from icy peaks
Deserts also have their springs
lost without you;
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Monday, May 08, 2006
denise shited{[[.........
i have nothing much to say
speechless
i guess everything must have an end
i was foolish to think that it will never end
i will never be that foolish anymore
oh...and the celebration was farnie
ahhas
it totally lifted up my day
ahhas
so cool
hmmm
lost without you;
Monday, May 08, 2006
Sunday, May 07, 2006
denise shited{[[............
imagine a time
where your world was young
you were a carefree little one
with your parents by your side
teaching you all the things they could
encouraging you for everything right that you did
and spending time with you
as you grew up
your parents thought that you were old enough to fend on your own
and leaves you behind
reality then hits you like a slap from behind
asking you to wake up and see the reality
that is in front of you
you suddenly feel like in a darkened room
no light!
you started to feel your way around
touching
trying to find a way out
just like in reality where you try to wriggle
and find your way out of the darkened room
you hoped in your heart
that someone will be encouraging you from behind
just like the joyful times of the past
but all your attempts of finding a way out were furtile
and began to think about what went wrong along the way
has your parents stopped caring about you?
or did they want to see you grow up on your own?
for you parents...you will of course choose option 2 of what i have stated
and for you struggling young people...or even adults...you will choose option 1
sooooo.......the question still reamins
what happened along the way???
many a time...you will want people to praise you
to feedback to you that you are doing fine
to be told that you are doing a wonderful job
but stop and think...
do you praise others???
now look at the people around you
well...i see many gloomy faces in the mrt train nowadays
especially those people coming back from work and school
have they been so downtrodden by their loved ones that results in this?
have our 'so-called' mordern civilisation result in the loss of morals and virtues along the way?
or have they drain into the drain just as the technology is picking up
do your part today....praise someone...and you will make someone's day...
mummy...daddy....i would like to hear that from you too
i have been working very hard but lately i have slacked
that is why i did not bring my results slip out
i i not want you people to feel that you have wasted your time,money and efforts in bringing me up
one person has hurt me badly lately
and now im still dwelling into it
that person might not have realise what impact the words did to me
that person said
'don't you think that your score now is so much better than those failing marks you got at the start of the term?why then,are you complaining?'
the point im getting here is that its not that i hav failed
but i hav scored almost every test an a1 or 2
and that person happen to score much better in this test
im not saying what that person said was wrong
its just that that mere few words made me feel lousy...
to be contented with a just passing mark
i mean...in life...shouldn't 1 aim for the highest one can go???
it made me feel really lousy
its not only that one sentence that i have been dwelling on
there are many more
like'people take many years to attain that what makes you think you can do it like them?'
aww...i shall not mention those any more
love status:low
mummy.....daddy...please dun d*****e
i want a family
please dun neglet me
i feel out..tho i dun feel it
im facing pressure more than you can imagine
i do not show it
but....
lost without you;
Sunday, May 07, 2006
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
denise shited{[[..........................................................
i carn believe it!!!!!!!!!!!i mus be mad!!!!!!!!!!insane!!!!!!!!!!outta my mind!!!!!!!!!!!
lost without you;
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Sunday, April 30, 2006
denise shited{[[............
the passing clouds
drifting pass
the bountiless clear blue sky
a lonely maiden with her nanny
picking up a flower
and gave it a little sniff
she put the flower onto her
bright golden locks
then looking up with her clear blue eyes
to see the clouds passing by
'oh nanny medeline, how great it would be
to find....
a man of your dreams!'
the maiden exclaimed to her dear old nanny
'isabella, my dear...men iz like ze passing cloudz
this lurve ze give zo you..ohhh...is like ze passing cloudz...'
isabella walked home silently
with the thought in her mind
her rich fater,master duncan has always wanteed to get her married,has he not?
why then would her one dear father push her into a state of dream where it would be over after the wind blows it
as she whispered her secret
about the beautiful flowers and butterflies
and the mighty trees in her own garden
the creatures of the garden all nodded their heads in agreement
as to what the future would hold
as to how her man would be like
it would tell
soon enough...given time
and with that thought...
she waved her shinning golden locks again
walking into the bleak future that holds the key to the answer
lost without you;
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Sunday, April 23, 2006
denise shited{[[.........
today,i just went into an in depth conversation over lunch. many things were mentioned about in the aspect of teenage life. things like relationships teens get into and studies play and being the most vulnerable path one has to face as a teenager.
perhaps it might not have occured to you that teens nowadays change very fast.in fact, not only is this applicable in this fast paced era where information is so readily assisible but also in the laid back style of life which singapore faced in the past.
being in such a fast paced sociaty, there is a certain advantage as well as disadvantage in our urban lifestyles. being in such an urban and non-stopping city, teens nowadays face a more changing and sometimes confusing state of mind
media nowadays is one of the most influential if not the most influntial tool in today's world.
as a result,teens , being vulnerabe to their surroundings because of the incapability of their feelings will tend to bend towards what the media is showing.
thus i think tt being a teen,we must take careful measures and nt follow what the media tells us
stand on our own feet and believe in ourselves
oh well
i tink its rth abrupt with this ending half way cus msn is killing me....
lost without you;
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
denise shited{[[............
this isnt happening!!
im toking in bits and pieces
maths test is like...tml
wad can i do
oh well
its wierd
its like....
smth you canot describe with mere words alone
i cannot believe it
oh well
i wna start a poem
this is to sum1 ,wong fei hong
in his teens he may be
but loyalty came 1st
andhis duties to his people
he honoured his promises
and kept secrets for people
unmoved by the thinkings of his generation
yet he weaved a new belief
he knew where his heart should be
and never forgotten his roots
a man with such justice
who wouldnt fall for him?
untempted by lust
upright to corruption
went for his beliefs
and proved em right
he waited for that gal
whose father forbid to see
him as he was thought for him
she asked him to wait and he waited
certainly,
his father's education did not go waste in him
if only men in these days are like that
so upright
and decent
and untempted by what satan gave
wouldnt then.the world be a better place?
women alike share the same fate
if only they would not sucumb to sin
and go wayward in their ways....
lost without you;
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
Sunday, April 16, 2006
denise shited{[[.......
aww man...u r stil slping???
how piggish can u b?
oh well....
i carn believe tt the whole church know u
i stil tink u r the 1st son...
ahhas
but oh well
its gd to b humble u noe
life is filled with surprises
wat can i sae
thats wher the fun and joy in life comes
aww....u noe wad
if any guy can sing a duet in the song 'hips dun lie'
with me...tt is
i wil totally melt
ahhas
lost without you;
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Saturday, April 15, 2006
denise shited{[[.............
read princess diaries again....
that micheal is reli nice
he knew tt mia couldnt make it on their first date
its because of a veh impt ball
den he brought the show they were going to watch at his place so they culd watch
so swit
if onli i hav michael
but wadeva...his fictional
ahhas....i seem to like fictional characters alot
but oh well
cus real people are jus too imperfect
lost without you;
Saturday, April 15, 2006
denise shited{[[...........................................................Hips Don't Lie Ladies up in here tonightNo fighting, no fightingWe got the refugees up in hereNo fighting, no fightingShakira, ShakiraI never really knew that she could dance like thisShe makes a man wants to speak SpanishComo se llama, bonita, mi casa, su casaShakira, ShakiraOh baby when you talk like thatYou make a woman go madSo be wise and keep onReading the signs of my bodyAnd I'm on tonight You know my hips don't lieAnd I'm starting to feel it's rightAll the attraction, the tensionDon't you see baby, this is perfectionHey Girl, I can see your body moving And it's driving me crazyAnd I didn't have the slightest ideaUntil I saw you dancingAnd when you walk up on the dance floorNobody cannot ignore the way you move your body, girlAnd everything so unexpected - the way you right and left itSo you can keep on taking itI never really knew that she could dance like thisShe makes a man want to speak SpanishComo se llama, bonita, mi casa, su casaShakira, ShakiraOh baby when you talk like thatYou make a woman go madSo be wise and keep onReading the signs of my bodyAnd I'm on tonightYou know my hips don't lieAnd I am starting to feel you boyCome on lets go, real slowDon't you see baby asi es perfectoOh I know I am on tonight my hips don't lieAnd I am starting to feel it's rightAll the attraction, the tensionDon't you see baby, this is perfectionShakira, ShakiraOh boy, I can see your body movingHalf animal, half manI don't, don't really know what I'm doingBut you seem to have a plan My will and self restraint Have come to fail now, fail nowSee, I am doing what I can, but I can't so you knowThat's a bit too hard to explainBaila en la calle de nocheBaila en la calle de díaBaila en la calle de nocheBaila en la calle de díaI never really knew that she could dance like thisShe makes a man want to speak SpanishComo se llama, bonita, mi casa, su casaShakira, ShakiraOh baby when you talk like thatYou know you got me hypnotizedSo be wise and keep onReading the signs of my bodySenorita, feel the conga, let me see you move like you come from ColombiaMira en Barranquilla se baila así, say it!Mira en Barranquilla se baila asíYeahShe's so sexy every man's fantasy a refugee like me back with the Fugees from a 3rd world countryI go back like when 'pac carried crates for Humpty HumptyI need a whole club dizzyWhy the CIA wanna watch us?Colombians and HaitiansI ain't guilty, it's a musical transaction No more do we snatch ropes Refugees run the seas 'cause we own our own boats I'm on tonight, my hips don't lieAnd I'm starting to feel you boyCome on let's go, real slowBaby, like this is perfectoOh, you know I am on tonight and my hips don't lieAnd I am starting to feel it's rightThe attraction, the tensionBaby, like this is perfectionNo fightingNo fighting
lost without you;
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
denise shited{[[.................
today was so shitty
i hate everyting that happn today
the poa test was sucky
din do well
haish
i hate myself 4 being such a complete dork sometimes
i think im the simplest form of a human being
that can be formed
thus resulting in my incrediblely low iq sometimes
ok....make tt most of the times
i can be thick u see
i may look alert and aware to things around me
but i guess god intended me for something else and thus put in the sotong's hormonal glands into my pea sized head
perhaps i reli do not hav the usual...u know...dna of a human being
maybe i may look like a human being
but in fact
i dun act like one
but sometimes the look alikeness makes you think tt i look like a human being and thus think that im normal cus u think that is wad a usual human being do
perhaps i should not think so much
but its indeed a known fact to all that im exceptionally thick that
i can be a complete dinkus
but wait...do i belong to the bombo spicies????
but its another known fact that my exceptionally shiny braces can be seen
and that i hav this chubby thing around my cheeks
and that is not a characteristics of a bimbo
culd i be....the nerds species????
mayb...cus nerds always dwell all their time into books
but i dun always do tt
like...im so not ...ok...nvm...dun wna mention names
mayb i belong to the 'extra' species
where these people are so outcasted that they dun belong to any catergories
that makes me yet again the champion of freaks
but hu cares anyway
we accept one another as god did so many years ago and stil is now
oh yah...another reason for my rotten day is that
i hav this house wife hair
which i brought to sch today
that is sooooo retarded if u ask me
y carn i tie a nice ponytail over there
yet again a proof of my retardness
if they set a qtn namely '101 signs to show retardness'
i can totally get a a1 out of it....
lost without you;
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
denise shited{[[.................
today i jussed pulled out my teeth...again...
like 2 teeth
imagine the pain
ok...i admit...it wasnt as painful as the 1st time round
like why are my parents so insistant in me having super straight teeth
hey,i agree with you u noe
i also rth me not going through this torture
and to be taunted by classmates like creatures
ok...it wasnt reli taunting
but it sort of feels like it
oh well..as im writing this,
im drinking blood
from my gums
tok abt drinks
im so going bb enrolment on sat
its like....free food!!!!!!!!!!!
but its on a sat
dad forbids it
like gg out with my grandma is all that impt
i mean..it is...but carn he make an exception
besides...many of my friends are in bb
and cailing is going to
all the more i must go
i hate my dad
i seriously hate him
i mean my dad
y isnt he allowing me to go to an event tt is all so impt
ok nt all that impt
but i want free food
and besides tt saves him about 6 bucks of food money on me!
why carn he understand????
that to teens,friends are equally impt as well
why...y carn he understand
oh well...
cus he angered me...im going on a shopping spree again
killing all the bargains i can find
besides...i can do with some extra new clothes...ryte????
ahhas
lost without you;
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Monday, April 10, 2006
denise shited{[[..................................
i decided to blog cus i jus read finish the princess diaries...
for like..the 1000th and 1 time
cus reli...micheal is like 1 of my cls mate
everyting the same except 4 the nicelooking and the musical factor...
oh well.................
y did u gif me tt funny look???
lost without you;
Monday, April 10, 2006
Sunday, April 09, 2006
denise shited{[[............
my stomach's upset
i tink its due to the yogurt
do you reli treat your other half like clothes you are wearing??
nvm...its just a passing qtn
there is many qns unanswered in this world
humans should not act all so godly
we cannot change what is beyond us
yes...its good to try...reli...
but we are not god and thus we should let the holy spirit do his job
reading my blog has surely shown you the other parts of me ryte??
well,im not reli the quiet girl that you see...
seriously..im more than that
if you get to know me more
i can be real corny
ok...thats bad to a certain extent
lets put it this way...
im friendly
ahhas..
oh well....
i sound real happy...but im nt
jus got scolded by my dad
mus b his girl agn
argh.....nth
i dun want to say this dad.....
but i dun wna look too nice to u either
im nt a kid anymore
FUCK OFF,DAD....
FUCK OFF WITH YOUR MOTHER FUCKING MISTRESS....
FUKING VIRGINA
GO DIE
lost without you;
Sunday, April 09, 2006
Saturday, April 08, 2006
denise shited{[[...........
i have been thinking
its not all that important
yes...its not all that impt
but stil...its a thought
but no1 wants to hear my thoughts
even if i bring it up
is it reli that impt??
i guess it is
but....
if i say wad makes me pissed,
then ppl wil gt mad
yah....cus they wil start pissing you off
people are not borned listeners like me
but that can be nurtured!
BUT AM I A LISTENER???
ok...i am a listener but i tend to 4gt
is it nt nice 2 4gt
but they hav known me 4 like....almost 3 yrs...
surely they understand me like how i understand???
perhaps im a literature person
a person filled with emotions and sensitivity
abt things around me
yah...i gt the picture now
yah...cus im nt a raw historian
or a dry philosopher
or a....nvm
the critism is killing me
that voice in my head
saying'break it up!break it all up!!!break all unnecessities and burn all of them in a wild bonfire'
plunge it into the dead sea...
command it dead
however i carn bring myself to do so
cus love,my friends....
love...is a gift from god.....
an attribute to our humanity
and the mark of our feelings
that differs us from animals or any wild beasts
i have feelings...and people...so do you
so...what made you lose your humanity
and forgot about me being human
you have feelings and so do i
and vice versa
are we,as 'people' in this era...worse than beasts???are we???
lost without you;
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Friday, April 07, 2006
denise shited{[[...........
y carn you just notice???
well...its not that im seeking your attention or anything
its just that why is your personality like that???
i tink in this point in time you have to check yourself
i carn always be there to tell you what you should do
or what you should not do
oh well...maybe you are just borned thick....
carn you just be more sensitive abt the ppl around you rth than just youself
typical musicians...
if you reli want to chase a girl...
its nt a very good idea to ask another girl
or at times,but very rarely ask the girl you like urself how to chase girls
the best is to trust your instincts and express yourself
but nt in the sense that you want sex and express yourself yar??
its reli a big turn off to getting to know more of that guy
hot tips in chasing the girl of your dreams:
-follow your instincts
-act rationally in times of need
-relationships are nt meant to be boring..so enjoy chasing your girl (even if she doesnt like you,take it as a lesson learnt and reflect on things tt you might done wrong along the way...same 4 girls)
-treat your loved one with affection(note:nt affectionate and intimate...it wil b a huge turn off for me if any guy wants to get intimate with me),shower him/her with attention
-all of us hav our bad days...so cheer him/her up instead of screaming into his/her ear if she/he fails to see your point....use the big L word.... LISTEN AND SYMPATHISE B4 REASONING....
lost without you;
Friday, April 07, 2006
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
denise shited{[[
lost without you;
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Sunday, April 02, 2006
denise shited{[[...........
i carn stand this shit!!!!!
how can someone b as stupid as that???
yes...i m indeed scolding u!
hav u no brains in ur head
or hav everyting else taken priority
a simple thing as that carn be done properly
hav simple things like consienciousness left ur dear soul???
something evil has indeed taken over
ok...nvm...i tink u had always had no brains
its veh sickening day in day out
i carn stand it
i always hav to pick up the pieces
of the mess that u hav left behind
i hate picking up people's mess left behind
i hav been doing that since the start of my school life
can u tell me y guys r so lazy
trampled over by them
i carn stand that
y mus i do all the work while they gt part of the credit
BULLSHIT...ASSHOLES SUCKERS....A HEAP OF RUBBISH
THOSE FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!
lost without you;
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Monday, March 27, 2006
denise shited{[[...............
i laid my butt whole day on the bed
too tired
yesterday was fun
lets do it agn
make up sucks
i hate it
oh well
ive been un poetic lately
mus b due to the stress
he looked back
to attract what was deemed
she had her heart
set out to forget
he was younger than she is
but she las a little heart
which tried to reach all out for him
he asked her to wait and then flinged her harshly onto the ground
upsetted by his violent behavior
violent...violently...
it shooked the earth
violent...violently
she has come thus far
forgetting....forgetting....
he now tries....
to attract that butterfly once more
but indeed...
he did not see
that feelings are...
that fickle thing
that lovely beauty
really had many suitors
and wanted to give them up for him
but he threw her
flinged her
casted her! Cold
and now...
he's surely casting,wellowing,in his own sorrow....
lost without you;
Monday, March 27, 2006
Sunday, March 19, 2006
denise shited{[[..................
its alr 3 plus
wad hav i been doing the whole day????
i need self actualisation and some self discipline
i think my social skills are going down
gota polish em up
even they find it........
nvm...out of pt
like pls...wad is the meaning in life if everyting is in the pt
wher is the joy
like wadeva
in my rebel mode now
there is no joy in life if everyting is to be
with a reason
y so serious????
its gd to gt pointless sometimes
add spice into your life
dun u get it???/
i dun understand y u mus sae out of pt everytime
it has become a contagious diesease
tt even i cannot fight off
do u hear me???
not everyting has to be with a reason
unlike u
which made u in2 such a boring person
and u r making me boring and
social skilless
u gt me?????
stop ruining me
i noe u r jealous
and hate to share me
but hu cares anyway??????
i duno y im toking liddat
but i tinkits time to tok tings out
im feeling veh uncomfortabke
dun u understand?????
and like.....y do u care if i mix with others
u r veh selfish like this
and i dun like the way u r doing things
its abnormal trying to take control of everyting
its absurd
the holy spirit takes control of ppl
not u
do u get??????
i hate being controlled
i hate being tied to a string
i want back my freedom
lost without you;
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Saturday, March 18, 2006
denise shited{[[
after eating my linch
and my skirt is bursting already
and that means tt im fat!!!!!!
hurray!!!!!im fat!!!!
lol...oh well.....
my life is quite stable
but the ting im excited abt is the esplanade performance!!!!!
its so exciting!!!!!!!
i duno y...hees
im oso quite stressed by my o lvls
i gota work hard
oh well....
life isnt always smooth yah????
hmmm....
eating is a joy
my goal in life now is to eat all kinds of food
every platable and inplateable dish on earth
hees....piggin out
talking abt joy in life
there is many
for me
its reading a bk
surfing the net
listening to music
but the things that can bring most joys to me
is onli 2
sleeping and eating
hees
thats me
lame
i veh sleepy
i tink i go slp le
tatas
lost without you;
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
denise shited{[[..............
love is a painful sense of beauty
it is hurting but when it comes
an experience of a glimpse of heaven is in ur eyes
it is like a soft dove
so pure and true
standing right in fornt of you
and if you are near that someone
your heart pounds a million times
and all that is in your mind is that special someone
when that special someone peers through your shoulder
and you can feel his/her breathe
breathing onto your very own neck
you will want that to comtinue on 4 eva
if you accidently touch him/her
you will feel a tinging sensation
clinging onto your skin
that miricle touch that you wish
and instantanously,healed all wounds
when your eyes interlocked with his/hers
fireworks will sprout of of you
and your ears will turn red
and your cheeks began to fire
when he/she talks to you
you will want to talk to him/her
but ends up talking gibberish....
making a fool of your entire self
haish....
lost without you;
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Friday, March 03, 2006
denise shited{[[..............
so stressful!!!!!!!!!1
1 party play
1 party check
1 party go out and havoc
1 party havoc at hm....
dotts
and i happn to b the middleperson
haish!!!!!!im so sleepy!!!!!
can those 2 adults stop ruining me anymore????
my o lvls lehhs
y mus they make me worried abt them
so old le
stil want me to worry
lost without you;
Friday, March 03, 2006
Thursday, March 02, 2006
denise shited{[[..............
i wasted money today...
wad had gotten into me???
im nt like this!!!!
y the sudden expenditure???
it looks pretty
it looks flat
it can contain
just a digit
or a few times more
it comes in many different colours
purple,green and even blue
it may drive u up the wall
but lack of it will garantee a hard life
it gets you to almost everywher
but sometimes it don't
it differs from every person
and affects everyone
people big small tall and short
it even affects you and me
it makes people greedy
it makes some rich
some detests its might
others embrace it with tenderloving care
it destroys people
but it saves them too
it kills the roots of nature
but without it,
it may very well kill the root of your life
that is how great the power of money is
lost without you;
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Sunday, February 26, 2006
denise shited{[[.............
perlini gt sale lor!!!!!!!!
ahhas
so nice
i like 1 design...its a bracelet
and everytime when i look at smth i like...i wil onli like it n nth else
jus like choosing bf
lol
jk
but the sad ting is tt
my sis took it away frm me
jus like tt
sians
oh well
nvm
im veh kind to her le
haish...
she'd beta treat me nicer
cus i dun always let ppl take wad i want....
i dun let any1 snatch it frm me
humph!
lost without you;
Sunday, February 26, 2006
denise shited{[[
can we enjoy this year???
ppl can we jus cooperate this year???
its the last year 4 us and i reli want it to b most memorable for us
lets hav our own fun
but not to make anymore teachers cry for our sake ok???
wad makes our friendship precious is that
its our last year
and last only happens onli once.....
and thats wad tt makes our friendships so important
i love all of you,my friends
but please dun make me sad ok???
i reli want this cls to be the best ever and the best way to do this is to work together
can we work hard together to produce the best marks anyone in the history of this school has ever seen????
can we make history????
love all of you 4 joy
i reli love you...
but pls lets make the teachers cry once again not for disappointment
bet the pride they have us
to be able to rise up against taboos
and make it happen
lets all score a1 ok???
we can do it
lost without you;
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Thursday, February 23, 2006
denise shited{[[..............
a tribute to S rajaratnam
a belief is all it took
with words and actions so true
ideas and deplomatic
a man with great aspirations
a great thought
for a small country
a country barely a year old
yet he made known
to the world
globally
for singapore to be that dot on the map
he trusted in this belief
a 'people's man' dear mr lee did say
a man of warmth
a man, 'approachable'
a man who 'wins the confidence of those who deal with him'
he believed that singapore
will one day be
of singaporeans
of harmonious people racially
he believed that singapore can make it
and we did
we are the hornets
and singapore being our nests
we are all with a sting and
will sting those terribly to those who provoke
he made it happen
late S rajaratnam
lets all salute him,singapore
for the roots he had grown
for singapores growth
..........................................lets make it happen!
lost without you;
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
denise shited{[[
so diao lor
everytime in sch i noe wad i shld do wen i gt hm
but once i reach hm...i dun rmb a single ting on wad to do
so jiat liat
sians lar........
dnt how to do
i seriously duno sias
so bad piece of work...wait chua scold me
wad to do
i seriously carn squeeze any more
brain dry le
like....squeezing water outta stone
tell me how to concentrate if everynite mum wil b like screaming at jaime abt her studies
so sick
like jaime carn even b responsible for her own learning
wad an idiot!!!
children wna look old
get duno wad shit boyfren
act dao....
act as if they're 18 19
but they carn evn hold responsibility
every time u r entittled for a privillage...
you hav to b responsible for it
like...if u hav a bf....for instance,
u r supposed to sympathise hoe he feel...
or she feel if u r a guy
and tts hard
cus at this pt of time...
the wad we call love
is jus a one sided selfish affection on our part
its ironic!!!!!
children tink they r so freaking old where they carn even be responsible for their own actions
its retarded kids!!!!!
b urself!!!!!!!
you will miss ur childhood wen u get older sias....
this is big jie jie speaking
and can any1 tell me the advantages of making a tr
mad at you
and luff at him/her???
u will onli lose...nt gain how macho u r!
its pure stupidness if u ask me
kids nowadays are horrible creatures who should all b sent to africa
ir even cambodia
they wna b animals...they can run free as they want in africa
if they r so keen in having sex
they shld all just go cambodia and see how child pros r treated
its horrible!
singaporean children r too much!
too petted at home!
pls like make good use of your time and
treasure every part of urself...your dignity.....
your freedom to choose ur career
dun b an idiot and go around wasting ur precious time
youthfulness is an asset...treasure it
cus time is in ur hands...make good use of it
i jus gt nth to say
ppl younger than me has several boyfriends
and some of em even had sex
i duno if im too pure or this society is going to hav a shortage of virgins lor
carn u gers treasure urself???
u all are indeed beauutiful....
but y ruin urself by having pre marital sex????
oh well...y m i even saying all these???
it will onli b fallen into deaf ears....
i can onli say...ur hav to learn frm experience....
onli then u wil understand
i wish u all the best
lost without you;
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
im gona b a mute
dun tok to me
i hate myself
so feeling like yuyang now
y must they treat us like vermins???
i did no wrong
wad can i do
no one believes me
no one understands my pain
do u know i want to get
many a1s???
y r the teachers biased????why?????!!!!!
im a human
can nv b that cheerful person again
many things i carn hide
the girl in the mirror,
lost forever
the unspeakerble words
was spoken once
no one listened...no one cared
no one cried for her
no one sympathises
the unfelt emotions
was felt before
but now stayed as cold,as heartless
as the walls of stone
ppl picks on
the weaker and the weaker
my unsinkable attitude
has now sunk
the unforseenable
has been forseened
say the last goodbye to me
lost without you;
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Monday, February 20, 2006
denise shited{[[.......................
like it wasnt bad enough to hav this humongous urge to sai whenever im online
and this lack of ability to comprehand easy things like science,poa,and whatnots
my dad is such an ancomplished engineer'
my mum is such a great cook
im such a complete jerk!
as in...
so useless...
getting tongue tied
and im incapable of doing anyting great
and the inability to get my hair into wad u call un-lion king ed
like...i walk around half my life wondering what i am doing
and the best thing is that i promised myself that i will not use the computer today
ahha!i lack self-control
y am i such a beast????
im hurting people and myself
why am i doing things tt r always my fault???
i hav to prove my worth...
to b trusted
to nt say tings of no nescessity
wad can i do
who am i to command respect
i dun even earn it
wads going on???
y is their mood bad???
my fault???
surely not???
wad did i sae
wad is happening
in such a complete failure!
i ain veh attrective either..
who am i to ask 4 attention
my poor me
haish
im lost
helpless!
save me!!!!!
i want to justify my actions
are wad i had said abt nt having a bf in this pt of life nt true???
i hav been applying this to myself
why is everything saying tt im with who...with hu going around???
how can i find myself once again inthe minst of darkness
im so ugly
haish
i hate myself
lost without you;
Monday, February 20, 2006
Thursday, February 16, 2006
denise shited{[[............
so worned out............
so much to do
so lil time
sians
every1 no time
every1 blaming me...
guilty????
nth to sae
wad more can i sae
if onli time wuld reverse itself
den everyting will b fine
lost without you;
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
denise shited{[[.........
poem on love
~ANGEL FROM THE SKIES~
whenever you are down
whenever you are sad
whenever you are anger stricken or more
a special someone
is at your side
when you are bullied
when your stress level hits way up high
and you need someone to vent your anger on
or when you cannot find trust in anybody else
always,a special someone is beside you
whenever everyone makes fun of you
whenever things go way too wrong for you
whenever you yearn 4 attention but you dont get it
there will b tt special someone by your side
i had that special someone
nor husband,nor boyfriend
nor daddy,nor mummy
nor best friend
nor close friend,
nor anypart....
not a drop of blood of mine is in tt person veins...
just friends...
even enemies.......
is by my side
i did not cherish tt special someone
nor did i even try to know tt special angel
i was bad tempered to my angel
did foul things
said foul words to my angel
and even broken my promise....unwittingly....
this day,i will come forth
to give....
nothing less than my deepest,most loving apology
on nothing more than valentines itself
in memory of my darling sweet angel
who left on wings spread so wide
that fly through,freely in the air
overshadowing lowdown creatures of this land
my darling angel...pls come back
continus to love me
to care ,to love
to give hope
no none other than me
-knees
that is a poem for my angel....or rth my angels around me
valentines day wad...lol
hmmm...ppl dun read too much into it
like im saying abt my BF or anyting like tt
i dun even hav a BF for crying out loud!
it might be abt YOU even b4 you even know it...
hees
lost without you;
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Friday, January 27, 2006
denise shited{[[..........
i want to create a poem....
lets see....
gona do 1 impromtu
you!that girl down there
staring into blank air
who thinks so lowly of yourself
too worried abt your clothes
you!that girl standing just there
can you see her?
that girl in a world without colours
she thinks she's a blur quueen without brains
but how can she be
that high scorer scored better than me
you!that girl loitering around
dont you know you are a beauty
filled around you is jealousy
so...who cares?what gives..??
you!that girl staring into blank air
who cares if you are fat?
you are just the way you are
not fat not thin
just the right size
anyone could dream
you!that girl with low morale
dont just stand there without uttering a sound
batter your eyes
and give your most charming smile
i assure you
you are nt as bad as you think you are
lost without you;
Friday, January 27, 2006
Sunday, January 22, 2006
denise shited{[[............
DEAR OLD SWEET...AWAY...
pretendious world
all in a dream
a dream so beautiful
yet worken up again
beautiful things taken
yat it fade
until it disappears from your face
in my lines of past
hidden behind my mind
tears and sorrow welled up again
her sweet smile kept appearing in front of me
looking at my once skinny body
came a song,a voice
so distant
yet familar to me
'eat more...eat more'
and that smile
smiling at me again
'study hard...'
was the strong two words
which will be kept inside my brain
that woman so sweet
no one can expect
she's a survivor of world war 2
a time where trials and sufferings
from the japanese occupation
my dear sweet woman was there
holding on every drop of hope was there
it was finally over
and she wed
with her beloved
my great grandpa had
chicken drumsticks!on 1 hand
yet a cup of wine on the other
so did my dear sweet girl
both ate and drunk to their hearts' content
right there on the bed...can you see them??
bore 6 children in all
3 males and 3 females
it was normal at that time
the man died young
leaving my poor old woman and his childs
many years passed
yes she pulled yet another through
2 childs died b4 she do
now,laying in a porcelein cup
left with her skeletal self on this earth
she loved me with all im worth
giving me care and love since birth
now all i can do is type
a poem that suits her right
in memory of my sweet woman
and the one who will stay with me 4eva till i die...
lost without you;
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Friday, January 20, 2006
denise shited{[[............
THE UNKNOWN GIRL
she thinks she had it all
gd looks and tall
but shorter she is than me
following my every action to be
she hates me
i know it
cus she shove me away like no one else did
she didnt do tt obvious alright
but nothing goes unnoticed in my eyes
she swirl n hopped
like how a innocent gal would
but grew her boobs as big as it could
i tried to be nice to her
i sure did
being me,as everyone else's fren
but everytime an opportunity arises
she would take
blinking her eyes in every flickering way
snatching everything away from me
i tried to talk to her
but of no avail
talk in a sense every fren would talk abt
but she would ignore me
so...wad shld i do?
i can see from her little eyes
that fiery anger churning inside her
burning her intestings,her heart and her lungs
that feeling of jealousy bouncing up and down
but still...i was nice to her....
hahas...my poem
not bad eh?
im stil moody
duno y
all cus of giraffe guy
tt one
u noe hu u r
spoiling my day...
and yesterday
sians 1/2
lost without you;
Friday, January 20, 2006
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
denise shited{[[.....
heaven was kind
it was fated
looks carn get you anywhere
only awful fate can giv you
either success or guys(gals as well) or most importantly work
in life
today...an awful truth sunk in
something i had earlier imagined
escaping it i will not
but face it
with the already little courage tt i had
i tried to take a step
but he wun budge
wad can i do?
many frens.....yes,i do have
but opposites do sometimes clash
no reason of any doubt
i hate it
i realli do
but i tried and tried to say i love you
oh well
bitter bitter fate
will never sink into depression-no i will not
but face it with my already little strength
i waited and waited
in no avail
things was really swell
swelled up like a big balloon
i feel like crying
to fill the sea
oh...where can you be...
abilities i do not have
but looks...looked like it'll soon emerge
something like a change of a butterfly frm a caterpillar
and my beautiful wings will soon emerge
nerds nerds...everywhere
i do camoflage like 1 of em
but there is a thing coming out of me
something extra ordinary
for you see,
im no normal girl
till now...
i realise tt i should not wait...
but carry on in any state
my poor poor strength in me
....i hope it'll grow alright...
lost without you;
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Thursday, January 12, 2006
denise shited{[[.........
oh well...
to all dnt students...
our o lvl's start now
horrid fate.....
today im very happy
god knows why
yet im damm angry...
oh well....
must b my swings agn
carn stand it
how many pages shall i aim to do???
i tink 80 ++ will b enuff bahhs
like....how much crap can i fit in???
oh well...
paisehed myself agn
carn believe it
im such a pig.......
i wna slp whole day
weather's so nice
but oh well
i cum n blog cus i hav nth to do...
the swan is on now
oh well.....
i wanted to create a poem agn...
but oh well
so tired...
lost without you;
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Thursday, December 22, 2005
denise shited{[[.......
nothing interests me more than poem writing...
yesterday i just written yet another poem...
its kinda sad tt simetimes i lose my inspiration....
i kinda agree with 'headmaster'
we have indeed lost our human nature...
its destroyed in our own hands
we have lost how human used to think...
children are indeed pure...
pure at heart...
it really wonders me how when you make them angry this instant but
the next moment they just forget it....
its truly amazing...
the older we get,
the more we have to learn the true nature of us....
it must be saddening for god to see his creations end up in ruins...
perhaps he is very sad to put humans in charge of this world...
before i share my next poem,
i would like to share this experience with you
once,as i was waiting at the mrt station for my friends,
i came across an old woman selling tissue papers(u know,,,the 3 for $1 kinda thing)
well...as i was observing this old woman...
poor and skinny...what a pitiful sight!
as i was about to purchase some tissue from her,
a woman,
an adult,or rather,a working adult,well dressed
just ignored her and walked away
judging from how she lifts her chin when she walks pass that old woman,
there was an air of arrogance arroun her
just then,
a teenager came by with his girlfriend,
both around my age....
he purchased the tissues...but he onli had a $2 note...
he demanded his $1 change...
after that,his girlfriend was praising how generous he was...
i was utterly disgusted and shocked!
a little girl with her mummy came by
in her little hands,was a $10 bill
and that was supposed to be meant for her christmas present
she told her mummy to wait for her for awhile when she saw that old woman selling tissue papers
what she did was very interesting
she walked up to that old woman and said
"por por...its lunch time...take this note and get lunch for yourself"
the old woman wanted to return her change but that little girl did not want any change nor tissue papers from that old woman
when mummy asked her why she had given that $10 bill meant for her christmas present,
she simply replied
"mummy...you said making people happy, is when you receive the greatest present of all.
im happy to know that por por will have her food and not be so skinny already"
upon hearing this,
i reflected upon myself...
as little as she was, she knewin fact how to care for others and thought about people less fortunate than her..
shouldnt we elders...
who are supposed to set an example for others be ashamed for ourselves
and leart frm the little ones instead??
here is my poem....
the poor innocent flower
alone and forlorn
a flower within weeds
brought from a magical palace
out of reach
it grew out beautifully
extending its roots
what a young lovely flower that bloomed
with every petals representing its virtues
and every of its leaves in precision
the flower was bloominf right
just then, weed cried
'flower,flower!you're so bright!
uproot your roots so you'll grow up high!'
flower,being young and new,
thought weed had said something so true
so she huffed and she puffed
and uprooted her roots
until her sugar level has gone below zero
poor old flower
in the brink of death
quivered at the thought of her end
the ugly weeds round her
sniggered at her foolishness
but ay ay
i will say
what a pity,she's so pretty
made to die
the hands of jealous ugly weeds
lost without you;
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Monday, December 12, 2005
denise shited{[[....
granny place...
nth to do...
bleahs
bored
dead bored
so long
i can smell granny's cooking...
yummy...
watch tv...
watch veh long
eat breakfast...
do nth...
sms....
no fone
i wna go bak hm
my brain is as dry as salted fish at granny's
salty salty fish....
i prefer salted veggie
nt salted fish
yummy...
i tink...
i drink ice water....
sians
looking forward to trip
sitting on cathy pacific...
hope gt chio bu....
haish...
aft christman...
no christmas ressies 4 all moi frens...
lol*evil grin*
mayb....i can gt at thai...
but it'll b belated...geez....
belated christmas gifts anyone???
lost without you;
Monday, December 12, 2005
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
denise shited{[[.........
after choir rec..
its soo long!!
poor poor voice
ahhas....
its like...i worke up soo early today
slept at hm last nite
nice...
stilll home is better
last nite was cold
had a bad flu in the morning
oh well
anyway...
i just suffered smth i did nt do
ok...like...wad am i talking about??
i have been accused wrongly...
by them!!!!!!
hate em....
sick sick people...
sick i tell u!!!
wad made my day today was tt i got to have
the tv all to myself
cool...
watched the ashlee simpson show...
well....her boyfriend was sweet
actually....if i had a boyfriend like her...i will cherish him too
ryan u see...
ahhas
like him...
his voice gives me a real warm feeling....
oh well....
he was so sweet...
cus u see...everytime wen ashlee sings 'pieces of me'
she will bring up a fan up on stage with her
but ryan,her bf
this time..came up onto the stage
ahhas...how swit
unlike asian ppl...
who r so....
urgh...
jus tt i fing ryan swit...
unlike asians...
lol...
asians are so...
so conservative...
carn stand it
but too...umm....
ang mo like is oso nt gd...
ahhas....
i hav this ambition
that is to b a singer...
i tink tt it cannot b fulfilled....
never....
judging on how im doing now...
hmmmm...
perhaps some other ambition..
lost without you;
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
denise shited{[[........
its so horrid!
i carn stand it
am i onli worth that much??
surely i worth more
u idiot
u sickening bird brain
worse that a pile of dung
even dung smells nicer than u
hey...i mean it ok
i carn stand it anymore....
i so gona hav a change of life
i worth more than u think i am....
hate....
wad is hate......
can any1 tell me....
i reli duno
i am way past hating till i do not know wad is hate anymore...
god has taken my sense of hatred...
my senses....that will make me sin...
okok...enuff of this tok...
i reli dun wna hate....
my nice sis lend me this com to blog.....
has make my day liaos....
nt like some idiot...
ok...nvm...i dun hate.....
haish.....
lost without you;
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Friday, October 28, 2005
denise shited{[[..........
im in the com lab nw
com lab 2
ahhas...with my darlings
lub em
bleahs
shao,kyy,chest,cl,jenette
bleahs
they watching happy tree friends lohhs
sad sad
i feel so bad...
so sadist
i tink i will hav nightmares tonite bleahs
my com is still down...sad
i wna go online n tok to my darling friends lohhs
ack.....my darlings are sadist lohhs
they are luffing away!!!!
i carn stand it anymore!!!!
hmmm...ltr go wher
i wonder
go out...
but singapore so small
taiwan beta
i wna go ther again
but end of this yr
i goin bankok
this trip had beta gd
i wna go to the chalet
i nv go to a chalet with frems b4
deprived childhood
i oso wna go out with all my ders...
hope can larhss
bleahs....
hmmm
tatas....
lost without you;
Friday, October 28, 2005
Sunday, October 23, 2005
denise shited{[[........
mum making vietnam popiah
lol
duno how to help
will make a poor housewife
dun make me do house work
im lazy
pig!!!!!
u'd better be rich if u want me to marry u
mum reckons i shld but a husband frm sri lanka or smth
cus i carn do housework
can sri lankan men do house wk??
crap!!!
sick sis
her shit stinks
get outta my life
lame
nth to do
no1 online
haish
help mum wib popiah bahhs
yucks!!!
but...i dun wana peel prawn!!!!!
yuck.......
lost without you;
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Saturday, October 22, 2005
denise shited{[[.......
ack! bored
jus had some car sickness
ahhas
typical
ahhas
jus kop some of dad's nuts
ahhas
he must b fuming now
ahhas
i tink i grown fat
mum and many others sae so
argh!!!!!
ahhas
hmmmm......
mon mus help miss oonie on those bk marks
again
i hope gt cip hrs
lol
if gt nice lehhs
ahhas
lost without you;
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Friday, October 21, 2005
denise shited{[[...
ahhas...now im in the chior room with jenette,kenny and cl dar...
nth to do...but i damm hungry!!!
jenette and kenny playing piano...lol
cl playing white the board...lol
i lehhs...nth to do...blog lohhs....
oonie at meeting...lol....
hmmm...nxt wk getting bak report card le
means that freedom will be stripped off from me
frm my parents
sho mus enjoy while i can...
hmm...i tink wil hab alot o ppl will b out of joy...sad sad...
wna cry norhs...
but hor...damm angry...
chua havnt gib back me money!!!!
argh....wait so long le
havnt gib treat yet....
carn stand it...
we go sizzler eat...lol...
kop as much food as possible...
lol...
can any1 treat me eat??
i veh hungry....
hmmm....
today is veh eventful...
we...(me n jq dar)
join in the sports quiz without any preparation...
lol....and we look damm 2pid in out uni
ahhas....doing those sports tingys...
i can tou lan!!!!!ahhas...proud of myself...muahahas....
den fadhil dar sae tt we gt 3rd place(which i was veh happy le....cus i anyhow do quiz...lol)den 3rd place goes to some1 else...
den i damm sad le...
cus i tot we wun win anyting liaos...
den well...
all's well that ends well....
ahhas...nt saying anyting....
hmmm...veh hungry.....bleahs....
wna eat....ok le...i go c gt food to eat anot...lol
lost without you;
Friday, October 21, 2005
Monday, October 17, 2005
denise shited{[[.............
ahhas
now i like this song...uncle mutton
nice...lol
today is a beautiful day
nice weather
i love the beautiful day god has given me
ahhas
my results was not very um....sastisfying
ahhas
i really hope i get onto track
hmmm
somebody help me
i hope i get to b roung like...top few in cls
argh
but i face tough competitors
i hate myself
so 2pid!!!!!!
hmm...i wonder tml hab wad courses sch has provided 4 us
but its like...nkf...
how interesting can it get
its nt like its veh boring
but just tt im afraid i cry wen i hear their stories...
argh!!!!!
this is so like me...
cry and cry
i guess its the female genes working bahhs
hmmm
i feel so relaxed aft the exams
but i guess
i will onli let myself get relaxed tis wk and the
wk i going to u noe hu's party
ahhas
hmmm....
reli...damm relaxed
bleahs
i stil feel tht i am fat
carn stand it
i mean...how twig like do i want to be..lol
hmm
gdbye 4 now
lost without you;
Monday, October 17, 2005
Saturday, October 15, 2005
denise shited{[[........
ok i ate a huge sausage and 2 scoops of ice cream
which in any case is a majorly big event!!!!
i ate them after dinner!!!
aww...i tink i am going to b a fat lady any time soon
unless there is a miricle for me
can you believe it??
here i am...
wanting to b the kinda figure miss universe have
(which will be true after about 5 million sit ups and like...5 years)
and there i am eating my lungs out...
i weigh roughly about 40 kg already!!!!!
i cannot stand ot any longer
like.....hello...40 kg...
is alot!!!!!
what will happen to my poor clothes
nobody is going to wear them anymore
and will ne left on the shelf...
do you have any idea how bad it is being left on the shelf?????
ok...its a methophor for me
cus i dun want to b left on the shelf!!!!
not theat i want to marry either
being a feminist and all
and striving hard towards female independence
to rule
(which in any case...is seen as impossible)
i truly hope i ace my eoys...
cus its really worrying and all....
reli want to emerge as top ten....
its really sickening!!!!!!!
i understand now why the government wants us to study now
cus without studying,
i feel like dying!!!!!!!
i cannot get pass a day without feeding it
with daily knowledge
u noe how torturing it is?????
its feeling is kinda like....
feeling itchy all over cus u noe tt there is smth you havnt accomplished
u get wad i mean??
today i read about ancient china
chinese men choose their concubines by their beauty
aww....it sucks...i know ladies
its already bad enough that they get concubines
how can they judge by their looks!!!!!!!!???
men!!!!
i mean....ancient chinese men......
i really hope that females get enough equal treatment around
and not used as toys....
as for me...
i don't even think i will want to get married
guys...never mention the word marry...
or do you want to stead
in front of me
cus me,
being such a strong feminist,
will say the word 'no '
right in front of your face
lost without you;
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Friday, October 14, 2005
denise shited{[[........
sometimes i reli want to think that there is more to me
not just some denise
but someone of purporse
someone of importance
not just that plain old denise
argh!!!!
oh well...went cl dar hse wib kor to watch moveie
had to leave after 1st movie cus mum called
i truly apologise
i saw j...
skipped a beat
seriously, that shld not be happening
i have to get away from all that thing
if i really want to gt something outta myself
i want to depend on myself to achieve great things
true,earthly matters are indeed not important
that is, the rewards awaiting for me up there are far greater
but somehow...what will i do with the extra time
might as well make good use of myself to cultivate better values
through earthly achievements
through my success and failures
i believe education does not scare me
its a preparation
for the future
its working life that scares me
the people of that society
when i get out of school,
i do not want to work in any burger king
any macdonalds
any 7 11(not tt its not good...its a job...but i have to confess...the enviroment does not suit me)
but somewhere that i get to have a room all by myself
u get what i mean
i really want to provide for my family
seeing as to how i hate to be poor
i really cannot stand it
how i wish i can go back to the past whereby
even though i want a 1000 dollar thing
my pareats will willingly give it to me
in my childhood,
i have learnt many things
i mean my parents, like any rich parents would
have sent me to numerous courses
i was once rich
once....
birdnests everyday
sharksfin as i like
however expensive a toy i will get
mum even told me i "had high tea" almost everyday..
(just that too bad i was still milking)
argh!!!!!!
i just hate being poor
but i must thank god
for giving me this chance
because,it is onli when i am poor will i begin to appreciate
will i then begin to work hard
this way i won't be labelled as
one who depend on my family's influences for success
i must work hard on my own
can never allow love(or rth crush)
to spoil my plan
one day...the world will hear of my name
my my family will never have to face hardship in their lives again
i pray all these in christ's name
-amen-
lost without you;
Friday, October 14, 2005
Thursday, October 13, 2005
denise shited{[[
--Exhibit Contents-- Exhibit HOME Formative Years The Great Works - 1905 World Fame Public Concerns Quantum and Cosmos Nuclear Age Science and Philosophy "The World As I See It" - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - More About Einstein Site Contents
"How strange is the lot of us mortals! Each of us is here for a brief sojourn; for what purpose he knows not, though he sometimes thinks he senses it. But without deeper reflection one knows from daily life that one exists for other people -- first of all for those upon whose smiles and well-being our own happiness is wholly dependent, and then for the many, unknown to us, to whose destinies we are bound by the ties of sympathy. A hundred times every day I remind myself that my inner and outer life are based on the labors of other men, living and dead, and that I must exert myself in order to give in the same measure as I have received and am still receiving...
"I have never looked upon ease and happiness as ends in themselves -- this critical basis I call the ideal of a pigsty. The ideals that have lighted my way, and time after time have given me new courage to face life cheerfully, have been Kindness, Beauty, and Truth. Without the sense of kinship with men of like mind, without the occupation with the objective world, the eternally unattainable in the field of art and scientific endeavors, life would have seemed empty to me. The trite objects of human efforts -- possessions, outward success, luxury -- have always seemed to me contemptible.
"My passionate sense of social justice and social responsibility has always contrasted oddly with my pronounced lack of need for direct contact with other human beings and human communities. I am truly a 'lone traveler' and have never belonged to my country, my home, my friends, or even my immediate family, with my whole heart; in the face of all these ties, I have never lost a sense of distance and a need for solitude..."
"My political ideal is democracy. Let every man be respected as an individual and no man idolized. It is an irony of fate that I myself have been the recipient of excessive admiration and reverence from my fellow-beings, through no fault, and no merit, of my own. The cause of this may well be the desire, unattainable for many, to understand the few ideas to which I have with my feeble powers attained through ceaseless struggle. I am quite aware that for any organization to reach its goals, one man must do the thinking and directing and generally bear the responsibility. But the led must not be coerced, they must be able to choose their leader. In my opinion, an autocratic system of coercion soon degenerates; force attracts men of low morality... The really valuable thing in the pageant of human life seems to me not the political state, but the creative, sentient individual, the personality; it alone creates the noble and the sublime, while the herd as such remains dull in thought and dull in feeling.
"This topic brings me to that worst outcrop of herd life, the military system, which I abhor... This plague-spot of civilization ought to be abolished with all possible speed. Heroism on command, senseless violence, and all the loathsome nonsense that goes by the name of patriotism -- how passionately I hate them!
"The most beautiful experience we can have is the mysterious. It is the fundamental emotion that stands at the cradle of true art and true science. Whoever does not know it and can no longer wonder, no longer marvel, is as good as dead, and his eyes are dimmed. It was the experience of mystery -- even if mixed with fear -- that engendered religion. A knowledge of the existence of something we cannot penetrate, our perceptions of the profoundest reason and the most radiant beauty, which only in their most primitive forms are accessible to our minds: it is this knowledge and this emotion that constitute true religiosity. In this sense, and only this sense, I am a deeply religious man... I am satisfied with the mystery of life's eternity and with a knowledge, a sense, of the marvelous structure of existence -- as well as the humble attempt to understand even a tiny portion of the Reason that manifests itself in nature."
my hero...ahhas
lost without you;
Thursday, October 13, 2005
denise shited{[[........
a day out after the exams
had a great time
with jq,wt dar and cl wife
i spent less than 10 bugs
lol
we went suntec to buy u noe hu jacket
its a black addidas 1
lol
ok...its a wind breaker
bought mocha in the end
the reason why i blog
is to let tt 189 bitch to know tt i have no stead
ok....
i duno y
im pissed
my good day have been spoilt by that news
like....argh
hmm...
i've decided
having a guy might not be such a bad idea after all
i intend to have on after i have graduated from secondary school
or mayb
during university
now i just want to concentrate on getting a good o'levels cert
ok...it may seem long
but im reli going to study
build up my understanding of my work
because i m lucky enough to not be borned into a rich family
which i thank god for that
i have been given a chance to work my way up
whereby i will somehow come to a stage where
i will thank no1 but myself for what i am
i really admire strong women who work hard
to gain what i hav worked hard 4
sum1 independent
ahhas
am i tinking too much??
hmm...
currently my idol is tt water woman
lub her
stil duno her name yet
will sae in time to cum
lost without you;
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Friday, October 07, 2005
denise shited{[[........
wad a fun dae
had so much fun with all my darlings
how i wished this trip would last 4eva
it was so fun
the food is ok lahhs
but the fun starts with sum game
whereby when it comes to a number,
den duno wad nid to eat ice cream
lol
i was 1 of the 'lucky ones'
lols
i tink the ics cream was nice
just that it was too much a serving
lol
then we bought cake!!!!
yay...with ' chester love waiteng ' on it
ahha!
so farnie
i hope i have such a bdae party
then kyy ask cl put cake on chest face
lol!!
he look so cute!
hmm...den like
i was veh apologetic
cus i nid to go hm early
so sad
i hope during hols gt tings like this
i reli hope so
cus hols can go out more often
i loved this outing
i reali wna thank all peps who made this dae so wonderful
smth tt i wil rmb 4 the rest of my life
*note:
if kyy is reading this
i wna sae i reli enjoy being ur classmate
going a long way since p5
hope we can b in the same cls nxt yr
u r a gd guy
*i'll keep my fingers crossed abt the diff cls thing...*
lost without you;
Friday, October 07, 2005
Sunday, October 02, 2005
denise shited{[[
Dancing bears,
Painted wings,
Things I almost remember,
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December.
Someone holds me safe and warm.
Horses prance through a silver storm.
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...
Someone holds me safe and warm.
Horses prance through a silver storm.
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...
Far away,
long ago,
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart
Used to know,
Things it yearns to remember...
And a song
Someone sings
Once upon a December
this song is closely related to me
i remembered that life used to be carefree
one without worries
which made this song into my topchart
i was so called a very impt child in my family
all my relatives loved me
and showered me with endless wings
i was a princess
having everything i wished
innocent and pure was me in the past
'someone holds me safely safe and warm' as well
these memories are 'glowing dim as an amber'
if i had not remembered wrongly,
'someone sings' to me everynight
the little princess that i was
ceased to be now
i truly had a beautiful childhood
with i am truly proud of
how i yearn for them to come back
i was wrong
a pretty face will not give you love
a sweet voice will never draw anyone near
the hardships of man is now wad i have to learn
tho there is still beauty image of the world is within me
the ugliness of this world i will have to face
pretty dreams will remain as dreams
precious memories will be kept next to my heart
innocence and purity will be what i will preserve
'dancing figures' will stay in my mind........
lost without you;
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Saturday, October 01, 2005
denise shited{[[
so flushed!
im looking forward to my trip to soul
ahha
wib all my darlings
bought a book 4 jaime today
children dae mahhs
lol
she's quite happy
but now im the 1 reading it!ahha
i wna read books aft eoy
white carrot says he wil beat me in lit
oh well
i anyting lahhs
hmmm....lit...nt certain wan
he may win me
but its onli 1/2 a sub
tho he may win me abt 1/2 mark,1 mark in lit,
but in ss,
muahaha....4,5,6 mark
and plus..i hav bin winning him in lit all these while
muahaha*evil wink*
lost without you;
Saturday, October 01, 2005
Friday, September 30, 2005
denise shited{[[........
had an experience of my life for tt 1 hr
lol
in the past,i tot msA
as a unreasonable tr
but as the year sailed along
she's nice
found out tru my interactions wib her
humourous and fun-loving
jus like my friends
but somehow, at the same time
she became a person to respect
a person who takes work and personal issues
separately
not like some ppl who combined these two issues together
today....is a nice day
just tt aft sch i gt to stay back 4 maths
but i like tay
she's nice
kinda playful
u noe aft the cls leave
den kenneth dear write 'i love you' on the board
den chio bu tay whispered to him
'you love me ar'
lol
i tink ken paiseh lohh
lol
my cls is quite a playful bunch
always fooling around
but sometimes they tend to toe out of line
which i fine
cus we are young aft all
i tink i wil b going to seoul garden wib
sep babies party(aka celebration for wt der and chest der)
so far i noe
garard,cl,jq,cm,tiff,sep babies,val,kh,yang darlings are going
lucky tt zy nv go
lol
unless i hab enuff $$ den i wil go
prob nid to borrow frm mama and other ders liaos
lost without you;
Friday, September 30, 2005
