Wednesday, July 13, 2005
denise shited{[[...............MY EVERDEAREST......
my everdearest father,
thank you for everything that you have done for me..the blood fleshly debt that i owe you. i know that there is no way i can ever repay. the horrible things you did.you married my mum, made love with her. made me appear into your life. that debt of love i can never ever reciprociate...when i was a few months into my mum's egg...you left her alone. my grandma took care of me...making me drown in tons and tons of bird's nest. the love and gifts showered upon me by my mummy's brothers and sisters.
at the age of 1, you started leaving me in my grandma's house...making trips to other countries and leaving mum and i alone in singapore...
at the age of 5 to 6, you brought me back from kindergarden everyday to lunch at macs...it was the best times i had with you in my life....
i remembered i asked you a qn...regarding how a tree can stand alone without any support...you told me you would draw mr the diagram of the roots of trees...i asked you what is roots...you said you would explain to me...til now...although i know...im still waiting for the answer from you...i will only take your answer.......
i remembered at that time, you started telling me bedtime stories...i loved it...especially the 3 little pigs...i just carn forget how we sang 'who's afraid of the big bad wolf?the big bad wolf?the big bad wolf?who's afraid of the big bad wolf?tra la la la la...."...it still rings in my head.......
i still remembered once you gave me spelling....there were over 60 words and a spelling test is to be held the following day...i had so many mistakes that you made me write a correction of an increase of 10 more words for every wrong word with each time you gave me a re-spelling.....i wrote till my little hands sored. but i managed to score full marks.....
i remembered.......
but once i entered secondary school.......
you changed........
changed........
we werent as close as before...........
you drew a line between us......a line that left a mark on me.......
a mark that cannot be erased...........
you told me off today.....
i shall never forget it.....
that 1 line of "whatever i do is none of your business"
will never be forgotten by me... strong i may seem....
but that scar you left can never be erased.....
but i shall let you noe....ONCE MY DAD,ALWAYS MY DAD...
i hate men.....
lost without you;
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
