Monday, February 20, 2006
denise shited{[[.......................
like it wasnt bad enough to hav this humongous urge to sai whenever im online
and this lack of ability to comprehand easy things like science,poa,and whatnots
my dad is such an ancomplished engineer'
my mum is such a great cook
im such a complete jerk!
as in...
so useless...
getting tongue tied
and im incapable of doing anyting great
and the inability to get my hair into wad u call un-lion king ed
like...i walk around half my life wondering what i am doing
and the best thing is that i promised myself that i will not use the computer today
ahha!i lack self-control
y am i such a beast????
im hurting people and myself
why am i doing things tt r always my fault???
i hav to prove my worth...
to b trusted
to nt say tings of no nescessity
wad can i do
who am i to command respect
i dun even earn it
wads going on???
y is their mood bad???
my fault???
surely not???
wad did i sae
wad is happening
in such a complete failure!
i ain veh attrective either..
who am i to ask 4 attention
my poor me
haish
im lost
helpless!
save me!!!!!
i want to justify my actions
are wad i had said abt nt having a bf in this pt of life nt true???
i hav been applying this to myself
why is everything saying tt im with who...with hu going around???
how can i find myself once again inthe minst of darkness
im so ugly
haish
i hate myself
lost without you;
Monday, February 20, 2006
